The CRiSis of the 1st Quarter of my life

It's the time when I know feelings and emotions are not enough to keep me going further in my life.
It's the time when I stop, wander and wonder about the meaning of my life.
Sadly, things weren't that smooth as I thought it would be.
Sadly, things aren't that smooth even now as I go along with it.
Thinking about the chances which I can be bold and cruel but I never did.
So now, I don't move from where I am.
Even a dreamer now is out of idea of what dream she can make.
She's lost. I am lost too.